that I'm not who I so wish to be.
That today I ate ice cream and then after such a good time of not purging, I purged. And knowing my pathetic self I'll probably spiral into a bulimic craze.
and you're probably sitting there thinking well, she had it coming. Nothing like a good old self-fulling prophecy, eh?
WELL GUESS WHAT? Having faith in myself isn't exactly working out
FUCK MY LIFE.
I feel like a damn cow and I have to get weighed at the doctor's office tomorrow and last time I was there I was at the height of my starvation period and I was THIN, DAMNIT and shes probably going to comment on how ive gotten FATTER.
AND THEN I COULD DIE...just hearing those words.
*sigh*
I am going to the gym in the morning for a HARD workout. I am going to sweat and burn. sweat and burn.
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