Now, I can't imagine how afraid you are, really I can't. Interventions just don't happen over here.
As I see it there are two options... Talk to them, tell them you don't think it is appropriate, say you realise the bulimia is an issue, but you want to work on it outside the hospital, with their support. Because, the bulimia does suck, doesn't it. It DOESN'T mean you are giving up the restriction dream, you know how to do that, it's like riding a bike - you know the rules, but ou might stumble occasionally. But then, if you were happier, really happier, that might not need to be the way forward anyway. And I understand how sometimes you need to be told to get help so it doesn't feel like YOU are getting help because you want or need it. Are you following my babble?
2) See what happens, be the bravest girl possible, and embrace it. Because there is no point going in and not embracing recovery, because you will come out, and this will happen again.
Saying all this, if it were me, I would be planning my escape. To some foreign country. But BUT BUT there is some part of me that desperatly wants to be ok in my skin, live normally. But I guess we are both too unwell to be able to see it.
I dont know. And i dont want this to come over wrong. You know i love you no matter what happens, I would love you to keep in contact. Do you want to email me and talk more?
I love you, please don't panic. It will make the bulimia worse.
I thought your post a few weeks ago said you wanted help... and that you wanted someone to find out because you couldn't live like this anymore. It sounds like your wish came true.
Hang in there and stay strong. How ever things go, I hope it's for the best.
ELLE ELLE ELLE
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Now, I can't imagine how afraid you are, really I can't. Interventions just don't happen over here.
As I see it there are two options...
Talk to them, tell them you don't think it is appropriate, say you realise the bulimia is an issue, but you want to work on it outside the hospital, with their support. Because, the bulimia does suck, doesn't it. It DOESN'T mean you are giving up the restriction dream, you know how to do that, it's like riding a bike - you know the rules, but ou might stumble occasionally. But then, if you were happier, really happier, that might not need to be the way forward anyway. And I understand how sometimes you need to be told to get help so it doesn't feel like YOU are getting help because you want or need it. Are you following my babble?
2) See what happens, be the bravest girl possible, and embrace it. Because there is no point going in and not embracing recovery, because you will come out, and this will happen again.
Saying all this, if it were me, I would be planning my escape. To some foreign country. But
BUT BUT there is some part of me that desperatly wants to be ok in my skin, live normally. But I guess we are both too unwell to be able to see it.
I dont know. And i dont want this to come over wrong. You know i love you no matter what happens, I would love you to keep in contact. Do you want to email me and talk more?
I love you, please don't panic. It will make the bulimia worse.
LOVE XXX
I thought your post a few weeks ago said you wanted help... and that you wanted someone to find out because you couldn't live like this anymore. It sounds like your wish came true.
ReplyDeleteHang in there and stay strong. How ever things go, I hope it's for the best.
i am so horribly sorry to read this. i really hope everything turns out okay. hang in there, please. much love, io
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