Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup, they slther wildly as they slip away across the universe. Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind, possessing and caressing me.
I wanted to fast so badly today. And I did. Until like an hour ago when I ate four bowls of cereal. *sigh*
instant regret and of course, purging. Now I just feel weak and tired and like I want to sleep forever. I was going to be social tonight, but I think that I'll skip it so that I can go to the gym and become less of a fatty. In fact, I should probably get on that right now.
I feel lonely.
I also had to write a poem in french. I wrote it about J. I might post it on here later but I don't know where it is right now.
I think I am going to buy buttloads of diet pills tomorrow. Just for fun.
Goodnight.
Elle
Sorry for my absence. I am back now. I am back.
ReplyDeleteLOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU.
And if you don't buy the diet pills I would suggest buying a jar, and everytime you want to eat when you have told yourself not to, put something in it. Money, or a stone. Watch it grow. That will make you keep going
LOVE x