GOD DAMNED MOTHER FUCKER

we didn't have time to get my dress yesterday and then my stepmother tells me like,

MID-FUCKING-BINGE THAT WE ARE GOING TONIGHT TO GET IT

AND SHE ALREADY TOLD J THAT HE COULD COME ALONG

SO NOW I HAVE TO TRY ON MY DRESS AFTER I HAVE EATEN A TON OF FOOD AND I'M GOING TO LOOK SUPER FAT IN IT AND J IS GOING TO THINK IM FAT AND MY FAMILY AND THE LADIES IN THE STORE ARE ALL GOING TO BE LIKE OH LOOK AT THAT FATTY TRYING TO LOOK PRETTY NICE TRY FATTY

AND NOW I DON'T KNOW WHETHER I SHOULD GO THROW UP OR IF THAT WILL JUST MAKE ME MORE BLOATED AND LOOK EVEN FATTER THAT BEFORE AND I DONT HAVE ANY LAXATIVES AND I DONT HAVE A CAR TO GO GET SOME

AND ON TOP OF THAT APPARENTLY WE ARE GOING OUT TO DINNER.

I DONT WANNA GO OUT TO DINNER YOU ASSHOLES RESTAURANT FOOD IS THE ABSOLUTE MOST FATTIEST DISGUSTING VOMIT INDUCING FOOD IN THE ENTIRE WORLD
FUUUUUCKKKKKKKK


FJDSAKL FJDASKL FJDSKLA'J FA'DS FJKDAL'DASFKLAJKL FJDSAJFD
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I LITERALLY JUST ATE LIKE 10 HANDFULS OF M&MS AND LIKE 8 COOKIES. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. 




I HATE THIS DAY WITH SUCH A GODDAMNED PASSION. 


UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


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Update: 12:09 am

That was literally probably the most fattening, calorie filled dinner of my life.

and as for earlier, I did purge and when I tried on my dress, I looked like a pregnant cow.

Then my stepmother assured me that I still had two months before the pageant to "do what I do" aka starve and purge. I swear she knows and just doesn't care.